On November 19, 2010, I drafted my first post on LastLash. Within that post, I said,
"I am going to stop pulling my eyelashes and eyebrows once and for all. I know that I'm going to get the "last lash" in this matter. Hardy-har-har, I'm so funny :) No, really though, I'm not going to pull out the "last lash"... I'm going to overcome it. Watch me shine."To be honest, when I wrote that post, I didn't see any end in sight for my pulling. I was desperate and looking for any and all the help I could get. Fast forward to three and a half years later, and I'm sitting here typing this with a huge smile on my face and a heavy, heavy weight off my back. As of this post, I'm currently 62-days pull-free... and it feels so good.
And you know what's the craziest part of it all? I'm not struggling with it anymore. It's no longer a "desperate" feeling. The urges to pull, infrequently as they come, don't hold me down, don't control me, and don't get the best of me anymore. In fact, I hardly notice them at all.
I have a few areas of my life to credit for this radical change. God, first and foremost, has made the biggest difference of all. No longer do I take medication or have to jump through hoops to avoid the urges of pulling. Nope... nothing crazy like that. I just pray... and I pray a lot. And you know what? It has worked for me. In fact, it's been a miracle, because absolutely nothing else did. I know that I'm here today because of my faith in God and the forgiveness and blessing he has given me time and time again. He is my rock.
Second, I know for a fact that upping my exercise and giving up alcohol have helped tremendously. Exercising helps relieve my stress, and I do it at least 6-days a week. Whether it's running, lifting, biking, circuit training—it doesn't matter. I love my workouts and the stress they help me get off my back. In addition, each time I would have alcohol, I would notice that I would pull. So no more drinking for me... ever. It feels good to give up yet another something that's had such a strong hold on my life for so long, and if it can help me stop pulling, it's a win/win.
Updated to add: I didn't include this originally because I believe overcoming trich is a very personal journey, but I know that the support and encouragement from my husband, Daniel has also contributed greatly to my success over my pulling. Thank you, Daniel. You are the one who gets to see this change in me more than anyone, and I'm so thankful for all the help you've given me—and continue to provide!! You and your "Don't touch!" reminders keep me afloat. I love you!
The last area is this blog and my other personal blog, Aunie Sauce. I never thought that writing my story for the world to read would make such a huge difference—but it has. Like a journal, this place has become my diary to vent out my struggles with trich and the problems I've faced. And when I write it in a blog post, I am sharing it with everyone else so I'm not going at it alone. I want to thank each person who has commented and emailed over the years... you have helped get me to this point. Thank you.
I suppose the point of this long-winded post is to say that maybe—just maybe—I finally did have the "last lash" in regards to my trich. I'm not sure if I'll never pull again, but for the moment, it's no concern of mine. I'm going to be taking a break for a while, as I joined the Air National Guard and I'll be away at Air Force Basic Military Training for a few months, so I wanted to wish you guys well. I'm honestly not sure if or when I'll be back to LastLash, but I can assure you that if you'd still like to read along with my story, you can still find me blogging away at Aunie Sauce a couple times a week.
And remember, as long as that little pull-free counter is still adding up the days over to the right, you can rest assured that no matter what else is going on in life, I'm counting my blessings that I'm still pull-free.
No matter what your struggle is, I promise you can change it. I did.
Here's to having the "last lash" on trich—now it's your turn...