Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Did I Finally Have The Last Lash?

Trichotillomania blog, Pull-Free Trichotillomania

On November 19, 2010, I drafted my first post on LastLash. Within that post, I said,
"I am going to stop pulling my eyelashes and eyebrows once and for all. I know that I'm going to get the "last lash" in this matter. Hardy-har-har, I'm so funny :) No, really though, I'm not going to pull out the "last lash"... I'm going to overcome it. Watch me shine."
To be honest, when I wrote that post, I didn't see any end in sight for my pulling. I was desperate and looking for any and all the help I could get. Fast forward to three and a half years later, and I'm sitting here typing this with a huge smile on my face and a heavy, heavy weight off my back. As of this post, I'm currently 62-days pull-free... and it feels so good.

And you know what's the craziest part of it all? I'm not struggling with it anymore. It's no longer a "desperate" feeling. The urges to pull, infrequently as they come, don't hold me down, don't control me, and don't get the best of me anymore. In fact, I hardly notice them at all.

I have a few areas of my life to credit for this radical change. God, first and foremost, has made the biggest difference of all. No longer do I take medication or have to jump through hoops to avoid the urges of pulling. Nope... nothing crazy like that. I just pray... and I pray a lot. And you know what? It has worked for me. In fact, it's been a miracle, because absolutely nothing else did. I know that I'm here today because of my faith in God and the forgiveness and blessing he has given me time and time again. He is my rock.

Second, I know for a fact that upping my exercise and giving up alcohol have helped tremendously. Exercising helps relieve my stress, and I do it at least 6-days a week. Whether it's running, lifting, biking, circuit training—it doesn't matter. I love my workouts and the stress they help me get off my back. In addition, each time I would have alcohol, I would notice that I would pull. So no more drinking for me... ever. It feels good to give up yet another something that's had such a strong hold on my life for so long, and if it can help me stop pulling, it's a win/win.

Updated to add: I didn't include this originally because I believe overcoming trich is a very personal journey, but I know that the support and encouragement from my husband, Daniel has also contributed greatly to my success over my pulling. Thank you, Daniel. You are the one who gets to see this change in me more than anyone, and I'm so thankful for all the help you've given me—and continue to provide!! You and your "Don't touch!" reminders keep me afloat. I love you!

The last area is this blog and my other personal blog, Aunie Sauce. I never thought that writing my story for the world to read would make such a huge difference—but it has. Like a journal, this place has become my diary to vent out my struggles with trich and the problems I've faced. And when I write it in a blog post, I am sharing it with everyone else so I'm not going at it alone. I want to thank each person who has commented and emailed over the years... you have helped get me to this point. Thank you.

Overcoming Trichotillomania, Annelise Rowe

I suppose the point of this long-winded post is to say that maybe—just maybe—I finally did have the "last lash" in regards to my trich. I'm not sure if I'll never pull again, but for the moment, it's no concern of mine. I'm going to be taking a break for a while, as I joined the Air National Guard and I'll be away at Air Force Basic Military Training for a few months, so I wanted to wish you guys well. I'm honestly not sure if or when I'll be back to LastLash, but I can assure you that if you'd still like to read along with my story, you can still find me blogging away at Aunie Sauce a couple times a week.

And remember, as long as that little pull-free counter is still adding up the days over to the right, you can rest assured that no matter what else is going on in life, I'm counting my blessings that I'm still pull-free.
No matter what your struggle is, I promise you can change it. I did.

Here's to having the "last lash" on trich—now it's your turn...

22 comments:

  1. Seriously, this is so great to read. It gives me hope that I too can one day be "pull free". It's amazing how something so small to others who do not understand trich, can be so monumental to those who suffer from it, sometimes controlling our daily lives. God and the mind are the most powerful things, and when used together amazing things can happen.
    So happy for you. You are the only other person I've ever "known" with trich, and I'm so thankful to have come across your blog! Congrats!!

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  2. Thank you so much for writing your blog. I accidentally found you on Pinterest and the impact you've had on my life is already remarkable. I was able to finally reach out to a therapist and I'm making progress. I have eyelashes growing back!! I hope to some day be able to have the last lash but for now, I'm still working on my recovery. Thank you so much!

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  3. congrats aunie! thanks again for taking the time to email me back about my daughter. You have helped me stay positive during our journey and I will keep that positivity flowing through my blog as well! best of luck in the military!!

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  4. Thanks SO MUCH, Samantha!! Yep, when we give that control over to God and put it in his hands, it's so amazing to be let free of it!! I'm just thinking to myself... FINALLY!!! I can't even believe it. It's a good feeling :) Hope you keep reading over at Aunie Sauce :) I'll still be there for ya :)

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  5. Pam, thank you so much! I'm SO GLAD you stumbled upon my blog. So proud of you for reaching out to someone. I didn't post about it, but having the support from my husband has made a HUGE difference and I'm so glad you are beginning to gather the support around you. Good for you, Pam, good for you. Keep me posted on your journey!

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  6. Thank you so much, Nichole. I really appreciate that! I will still be here for you anytime and can't wait to see the progress your daughter makes. You guys are amazing!!! Thank YOU for your support!

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  7. I can relate and honestly, I think you are so cute- eyelashes or no eye lashes. Obviously you are really good at makeup!

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  8. Thank you! It's one of my favorite hobbies... I LOVE makeup :)

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  9. Hi I have been doing this for over 20 years.So I know about trying to hide it with make up. Good thing I'm not a guy huh? Lol.

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  10. Make up has always been my best cover-up friend, too! Don't worry, you're not alone :)

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  11. Congratulations Aunie! I can't believe you did it! You are such an inspiration to me and so many others out there! I always think about how it will feel when I get there too and I'm sure it's an amazing sense of accomplishment and like you said, weight off your back. I hope you are celebrating big with the most expensive mascara on the market :-)

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  12. This is such an inspiration for me. I have no eyelashes and my eyebrows are starting to look patchy and to know I'm not alone in this is so uplifting. Thank you for this blog.

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  13. Hi Annelise, great post! I hope you saw more luck using Latisse. You mentioned the cost and I wanted to let you know that www.LatisseDoctor.com sells Latisse at a discounted rate. They have an account with Allergan so you know you're not getting a knock-off. Just a tip for you and anyone else interested in using Latisse! :)

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  14. Congrats!
    I know this is a bit old, but I have trich too, and pull out my eyelashes. I have been pull free for about 2 weeks which for me is a achievement!
    Thanks soo much for inspirering me. It makes me feel better that I know I am not the only one out there that has to get through it!
    Congrats again!

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  15. Susie, 2 weeks is so amazing! CONGRATULATIONS to you & keep it up :)

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  16. Do you know how long it takes you to grow a decent set of lashes from having none?

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  17. Steph, check out the progress I made in a month at the bottom of this page : http://www.lastlashblog.com/p/picture-progress.html

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  18. Hi Sammy! Thanks for your question. At the time, I think it did. I stopped going because I found that prayer and writing (for me) was more helpful. But at the time, I believe it did make a difference. I also had it done at a very affordable place, so that made it nice. Everything is worth a shot just to see, in my opinion :)

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